I haven't had much inspiration to write the last two days. I just cant find the inspiration to do much these days. I am blaming it all on the crappy weather. I wonder if the sun's gone into hiding or something. 2 Weeks with cloudy skies and rain rain rain is enough to drive anyone over the edge. Its like the world is dull and dreary and miserable.
I am irritated with everything. I have an interview this afternoon. I know that I need to prepare for it - but im not phased by it. It should be fine - I hope. So Sweets and I had the dreaded conversation again. This time it was more serious and I could feel him getting a little uptight. In the past we would have gotten angry and upset and a fight would have brewed. In this case we sat civilly both trying to compromise and let the other know how we feel. I was very nice about it but also very diplomatic. I am not going to back down. I know that I am probably being mean but living with his family is just ridiculous. Not when we both can afford to live on our own. I must admit that at times I felt like a lawyer putting her case forward. A very weak case. But than again his was even weaker. I just hope against all odds that I get what I want. I might be selfish but I am trying to look at the broader picture and living with his parents is just going to cause unnecessary strain on our relationship. I don't have anything against them - i mean they have never been nasty or mean to me. But they are very different and I just feel that in today's day and age it doesn't make sense. I just hope that gets to see my point of view instead of being blinded. I know that it would be for the best.
I am writing an exam in a weeks time. I haven't even started studying. It's a course that I did last year as I needed the credit to gain entrance into a study programme. So I enrolled and it wasnt the most easiest of tasks. It really is hard to work and study and I take my hat off to all those people who seem to manage it so effortlessly. It's an open book exam and those are supposed to be easy right? Wrong. I will study this weekend.
I am feeling so drained.... I wish it were Friday already....