Tuesday, March 31, 2009
This past weekend was a whirlwind of events. On Friday night we were invited for supper to T's friend's house. The one who didn't invite me to her bridal shower etc etc etc. Anyway her wedding was on Saturday night, so we were invited for dinner the Friday night. Saturday night was the wedding and I spent the morning preparing for Sunday, than visited my mum and than came home to get ready for the wedding. The wedding was lovely. Small and plain but nice. I was rather peeved when the entire centerpiece filled with blue water toppled over and nearly ruined my clothes. There I was sitting and enjoying dessert when these stupid children leaned over and the whole vase came towards me like a wave ready to topple. I moved but not before my entire chair was filled with water not to mention my skirt and a small portion of my shirt. Luckily my skirt was black and its a really strange fabric because in no time it was dry. That really put a damper on the evening and all I wanted to do was now go home.
On Sunday the in-laws left for overseas but not after the dad invited all his friends for lunch. The mum decided on a braai, and I ended up doing almost everything again as everyone certainly lacks initiative. Their flight was at 10pm so we only came home at 10:30 from the airport. Pheew am I glad that they aren't here for the next 3 weeks. What peace - it's like heaven.
As for work - I am just so tired and inspired. I am not sure when the other position is going to be advertised cos the whole restructuring process only ends next week Monday. I am just soooo tired of the crap that goes on here and if that position doesn't work out I will seriously need to re-think what I am going to do because I just can't stay on here doing this anymore.
I think that, that is enough griping from me.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
I told my boss today that I would like to apply for the position and funny enough she knew about it. Maybe that's why she was looking at me strangely this week - hmmm not sure. But you know how people talk and I did tell the hiring manager for the position that I would inform my boss. Well anyhoo - she said she wouldn't stand in my way and as soon as it's advertised I should let her know so that she is aware....
So 2 hurdles down - a few more to go. The position wasn't filled during the restructure and my boss has given me permission to apply so now all I have to do is wait until its advertised and me thinks that it will only happen in April once the restructure is completed. And than I have to apply and go for the interview and than who knows.......
Still crossing fingers and toes like crazy.... I know I shouldn't think too much about it but it is something that I so want to do and so within my career plans..... I want it so badly.
Pheew today was a long day and I so can't wait for the weekend. I have no real plans but at least I get to sleep in late. T and I had an argument last night. Something about priorities. I proceeded to give him the cold shoulder the whole of last night and we kind of made peace this morning but I still have to have my say tonight. I have to get it off my chest otherwise it will just fester and brew and that's not good at all. I feel him so sorry at times but he really needs to stand up for himself where his family is concerned. I know that it's his family but still hello. Don't they think. They just expect him to be at their beck and call for everything. It irks me to no end. He on the other hand in my opinion doesn't know any better.
I must admit that I am feeling really positive after the chat I had with my boss. I also went and got feedback regarding my psychometric evaluation that I did last year. Why they just don't give me the report is beyond me but anyway the profile isnt't bad - I was expecting far worse lol. It's good so that shouldn't be a problem regarding my scores. Still I am nervous and worried. I want it so badly and sometimes when I really, really want something - it doesn't happen. Than again whatever is mean't to be will be right....
Monday, March 16, 2009
Hmmm - so the position that I have been blabbering on about has not been filled. The announcements went out today and that position wasn't on the list. I called the hiring manager for the job and she confirmed that the position remains unfilled and I am welcome to apply when it is advertised. She couldn't give me a time though. I am not sure whether to be excited or not. A part of me is, however at the moment I feel very despondent when it comes to work and my career. I know I shouldn't be negative but the area that I work in has been really trying and I get no support from my manager. I always thought that she was great, but she favours who she wants to and because I just get on with it and do it and I don't run every 5 min to her office sucking up - I get ignored. It is frustrating and I am constantly questioning myself whether I am doing things right or not.
I will definitely apply for the position once it is advertised, however I do need to inform my boss of my intentions. She can block my application, because I am not in my position for a year and company policy is that you have to get authorisation to apply if you are not in your current portfolio for a year or she will allow me to apply. I really am not sure - however I would like to apply for it. To be quite honest - right now it seems like a light at the end of this tunnel. It seems like a glimmer of hope where I can at least prove to succeed amidst challenges and obstacles.
I am sooo buggered after this weekend. Yesterday was the dad's bday party. His 50th mind you. I am so exhausted - the whole party was at my house and I planned and planned and planned and at least it all went off without a hitch. Except that the mum and dad got into the car this morning at 5am and drove to Durban. I knew they were going but she was in no way bovvered to clear up or anything. She still has the nerve to say - oh well leave it all, go sleep you must be tired. I looked at her incredulously and told her never - I can not go and sleep with my kitchen looking like a warzone of food and stuff. She really is strange. At least the party went off ok. That's all that matters right. For the first time did my in laws have a function that was close to perfect. I am not blowing my own horn - but my mum and I really went to a whole lot of trouble to making it pretty great. Oh the others all helped but the ideas were all ours. Whether it is appreciated is still left to be seen.
At least my house was clean this morning.... :)
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
The position that I really have my heart set on was advertised and guess what I meet the requirements to apply. BUT - I can't apply just yet because it was advertised during the restructure phase and since I'm not an affected incumbent, I am unable to apply. If the position remains unfilled when the restrucutre is completed, only than can I be considered. It is a long shot and if it does get filled than it's gone and the sucky feelings that I constantly feel towards my job are just going to escalate. This is so in line with my career plans and where I ultimately want to be.
Please cross your fingers and toes as I hope and pray that the position doesn't get filled so that I can be considered...... Oh and by the way the position reports into my old manager who I got along really well with. I chatted to her this morning about it and she advised me to inform my line manager etc etc etc. I told her to please keep me in mind....
Here's to really really, really hoping..... Fingers Crossed!!!!!!
Monday, March 09, 2009
This just confirms it. I never liked B and to be honest she doesn't like - so we should cut the pretense and just not pretend at all. Why she suddenly wanted to spend all her time with T and I is beyond me. To be honest, it was probably a ruse to get to spend time with her soon to be husband. T can be so dense at times and will not realise that people are taking advantage of him. I only tolerated her because of him and because she is like a sister to him. He was pretty mad as well. To be honest - I don't care.
I am in the midst of planning a 50th birthday part. My father in law turns 50 on Sunday and the Peter Pan that he is - has insisted that he wants a party. So as of Saturday I have went into planning mode. I just hope all goes according to plan as the parties concerned lack initiative and chutzpah to really pull something wow off. I am not blowing my own horn or anything but seriously they do lack some serious case of INITIATIVE.....
Friday, March 06, 2009
T has a friend called B who is getting married in a few weeks time. Yesterday when I get home, T's mum asks me if B has called me to invite me to her bridal shower. So me forever in the dark when it comes to these things didn't know anything about it. Apparently there was some confusion about whether they were having it or not and now they are so she called T's mum to invite her. T's mum told her to call me and T's sister and let us know. B was adament that she would call me last night. Well she hasn't so technically I haven't been invited. So I'm not going.
Am I being unfair. She called the mum and told her but the mum told me that she told her to call me and she hasn't so I don't feel like I should go. How can you invite someone 2 days before or even a day before in my case. However personally I think her dad slipped up with T's mum and happened to mention it to her yesterday, because she told T's sister that they aren't having anything. So me thinks that they had no intention of inviting us and now just have to because her dad told my mother in law about it. Hmmmmm I bet you I am right.
I am in a dilemma because although she didn't invite me and to be quite honest I don't give a shit because she is so damn irritating I can puke, my MIL will think well I passed on the message to you, so you should go. So annoying. Another wonderful weekend awaits me in FREAKVILLE!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
I haven't been feeling well lately. Low blood pressure again and guess what the meds that I used to take have been discontinued and there is no substitute. I am stuck with eating salt and drinking lots of water. I don't mind the water, but salted stuff can be a bit much at times. I eat Salt and Vinegar crisps like crazy... lol.
Work's been very stressful with neverending dramas that are becomming to stale and pathetic to care anymore. I used to be excel under pressure, strive to overcome challenges and really attempt to beat the odds, but lately I find myself becomming anxious over trivial things and the stresses just keep mounting. It is becomming really tiresome.
The last few weekends have been pretty crazy. T and I really need to create some kind of routine or else we will be saddled with his parents cronies who don't seem to have a life and spend all their weekends together. Although I have no intention of spending time with them, it has become rather annoying. We happen to be right next door so you always know what's happening at the next house. I am a fighter and I wont let anyone take advantage of me, but T's mum can be a really scaly and I don't trust her. Aah the joys of being and Indian daughter-in-law.