Perspective

I have been missing in action. Work has suddenly become very hectic. We are announcing the restructure tomorrow and to be quite honest - it is quite bad. We only found out yesterday the true impact of it all and I must say I felt bad for the area that I look after. We have done away with 5 positions - which means that 5 people could lose their jobs. Scary if you ask me.

I was very irritated yesterday because the powers that be in my area were not consulted but everyone else in the other areas were. I just feel that it is very unfair with the way things have been handled. Anyway - such is life and as one of my senior business partners mentioned today - Shit Happens.

I feel as though I want to do something else this year. I feel so out of it when it comes to work and I just don't enjoy it anymore. Besides the politics that go on here are too pathetic for words.

I am finally getting into some sort of routine with cooking and playing house. It really isn't so bad and I am really enjoying it. These hectic few days have affected my mood and not to mention the horrible weather. I really wish the sun would come out.

I need to gain some perspective on my career and where exactly I would like to go. I just feel that I am not doing something that is my true passion. I feel quite lost and really need to get some direction as to where I would like to go. I don't think that I want to carry on with whatever I am doing now. It is not what I studied for and when I was at university I hated it. I am a Psych Honours grad and am registered with the HPCSA as a Pschometrist. My true passion is counselling and therapy. Now in order for me to do that - I will need to complete my masters degree in Clinical or Counselling Psychology. Scary stuff because I applied a few years ago and was told that I was too young. Hmmm apparently one needs quite a bit of life experience and I had none. I wonder if I will be able to make the grade this time. Applications close in June/July this year and I am definitely going to apply. They only take a limited number of students and the course is quite intense.

I only hope that I get in for the programme.....