Friday, February 13, 2009

Tension

I am in a weird space right now. I just feel very tense and mostly because things at work have been really stressful for me these past few weeks. We are busy with a serious re-alignment excercise and the tension that is building is quite serious. Also the fact that Summer has decided to take a break and we are freezing cold doesn't help matters much. I am cold and that makes me miserable.

Let me not even get started on the traffic situation. I could have cried out of sheer frustration yesterday. It usually takes me 15 min to get home. It took me over an hour. I was so pissed. I am so not used to driving myself. I used to ride to and from work with my brother, so he did all the driving and stressing, while I just sat and entertained him with idle chit chat. Now I have to drive myself and the traffic situation has somehow increased. Crappy crap if you ask me. I know I'm being silly and there are much more important things in this wolrd than me bitching about the weather and the traffic - but still ok. The sun seems to have disappeared.

As for the tension here at work - things are just too crazy for words. First of all we are quiet which is bizarre. This week I found myself scouring the net to pass the time. However this has been shortlived every day of the week. For the whole day we sit twiddling our thumbs and just as its time for the end of the day an avalanche of stuff hits us and it needs to be done NOW. Frustrating at it's best if you ask me.

I am really questioning whether I want to continue doing this. I am finding no joy in it anymore and I keep getting questioned for other people's stuff up's. Really not enjoying this anymore. It just seems that there is too much crap going on at the moment.

T and I will be married for 2 months tomorrow. What we doing for V day - I am not sure. We usually buy each other silly little things, although I haven't bought him anything this year yet. Really not sure what to get him, besides I do believe that it is a huge commercial ploy to ensure consumers spend money that they don't really have. However in the spirit of V day and love and all things nice - I probably will oblige.

As for all these tension's that are threatening to make me explode - I am really glad it's the weekend. Pheeew.....

5 comments:

TheCullinaryQueen said...

Thanks so much for the advice over at my place...it is much appreciated.

Happy Anniversary to you and T :-)
Two months already? Wow! It went by quickly hey?

Well doll, if you are not happy in a situation, then you should move on to something else that will make you happy. Hope you do find what you looking for.

Enjoy the weekend!

Safiyya... said...

i start the tension where you finished at the alter...

working and planning a wedding is the worst combo...

Happy 2 months :)

Saaleha Bamjee-Mayet said...

I have cried in traffic. Big, angry, screaming and pounding the steering wheel kind of crying. Awful stuff.

If that Rea Vaya bus transit thing takes off, I will happily leave my car at home and use public transport.

Blue Sunflower said...

Thanks - CQ and Safiya.

Saaleha - I dont feel so alone... :)

Nafisa said...

Happy two-month anniversary ;)

Cant really complain about traffic, it takes me 10 mins to get to work. Recently with all the robots being off, bad weather, takes 30 mins.