I am really struggling at work and things seem to be unravelling at lightning speed. I am not sure if I am doing the right thing, my boss seems pissed off all the time and there seems to be something serious brewing but it's all very hushed right now. I work in Human Resources and I service a really huge and vital part of the business. I have heard through the grapevine that there is a restructure of some sorts looming and it is apparently quite big. I don't think my position will be affected, however the areas that I do look after are big time. I feel sorry for them because it looks as though this economic meltdown and what is happening overseas is going to hit us too
What irritates me is that we as HR are totally in the dark, so we go to meetings and have to liase with our business, field questions etc etc but are told nothing of what is happening. I feel like a complete idiot everytime I am asked a question of which I know nothing off. My boss is permanently grumpy as she is apparently managing this whole thing with the big boss. One can't even get to ask her important stuff. I am feeling lost and am really struggling to get through it all.
I really feel that I want to do something new, something else that will challenge me in a positive way. I am really feeling out of sorts today and with the grim picture that everyone is painting, finding alternative employment seems hard to come by. I seem to find myself in a confused space and am feeling pretty inadequate. I just feel as though the world has slightly went off balance and things are not really as they seem.
Hmmm - I feel weird.