Sunday, December 07, 2008

Ramblings

In exactly a week's time, I will be Mrs T. A part of me is really excited, while a really huge part of me is actually quite sad. My life is going to change and while I am up for it, I feel as though I am leaving a part of my life behind. I know that I am really going to miss my family. My mum and I are best friends and ever since my dad left, she and I have gotten very close. I know she is going to miss me and I really hope that the new year is going to be a better one for her. I really only want the best for her and really want her to be happy. She has sacrificed a great deal for us and all I want is for her to find her happiness. As for my brothers, I just know that not living with them is going to create a real void. M is the really weird one. He is the life and soul of any party, but let him get near a couch - than the world ceases to exist and he just plonks into it and falls asleep. He is such fun and really makes us laugh. He has really got us through some really tough times with his laughter and silly antics. Than there is A - the real moody, playful type. He can be all happy and jovial the one minute and totally sullen and moody, the next. What about my little dog Pixie, who I am leaving behind.

Yes I am not going far away and in my heart of hearts, this will always be home - but as of next week Sunday I will have a new address and a new family. Really big adjustments and changes and to be honest I am not really big on change. However I love T and I can't wait to begin my life with him.

My weekend was pretty busy. Yesterday I went for my final final dress fitting. It is looking really pretty and the designer totally surprised me when she casually mentions as we were leaving that she would like to come and dress me on the day. I was so overcome with emotion and nearly burst into tears. I decided to go for another trial for my make-up, as I wasn't too happy with the first trial. I went to the Mac counter at Edgars and they agreed to fit me in today for a trial. R140-00 bucks later I walked out of there looking totally different, but so totally me. Where the other lady was old and did a whole look where I looked like a walking ad for Plascon, this looked totally and utterly natural. I am impressed, so next week Sunday I will be making my way towards the mall after I get my hair done.

We collected the flowergirl dresses today and I must say they came out really gorgeous. I love the way they look and cant wait for them to wear it on the day. We had guests over this afternoon, but after a while all I wanted to do was sit by myself and have some me time. My cousin F was here and I insisted that we go to Wimpy for supper. I just felt that this will be the last time it will just be us as usual because next time T will be with and it will obviously be different or there might not be a next time for while. I love being with the girls and even though they tire us out most of the time - I still enjoy them.

I have a whammy of a week and I just no that it going to whizz by. We having a henna night on Friday night and I really wanted to get some belly dancers here to provide some entertainment for the ladies. It doesn't look like it's going to pan out so music and some kick ass decor will have to do. We are expecting a number of people on Friday and Saturday night and obviously Sunday is the big day.

Nerves, Nerves and more Nerves and not to mention raw emotion when I think of the goodbyes next week Sunday....

8 comments:

emancipatingmymind said...

There is a huge adjustment ahead for you. My best friend just went through it. It takes abit of time before things settle down. I think that teh changes that we anticipate aren't as difficult once it does happen.

But saying that I can understand that bittersweet feeling.

The best thing that you can do for your family is to be happy :) That will mean so much more than having you with them.

Have a great life with your husband and make your mum proud by raising your kids the way she raised you. Its the greatest testament to how wonderful she is.

Be happy! May your home and your marriage always be filled with joy and contentment.May Allah grant you good children and sucess in everything you do.

And don't forget that you'll always be your mums baby :)

Kitty Cat said...

Big changes ahead, but you'll feel more like a grown up...well, at least I did when I moved in with my fiance and got married.

Blue Sunflower said...

Thanks so much for the kind and inspirational words. I feel sad and happy all at the same time.... Strange feelings all rolled into one...

KC - Talk about being all grown up. I kinda feel like I am going to enter into this whole new phase in my life where I get to be the grown-up. :)

Azra said...

Wow...the best of luck for the days to come...I'm sure the transition will take place more naturally then you can envision...but keep those Twinsavers hidden because you're going to need them :)

Zee said...

Hi Azra

Thanks for the kind words...

Blue

boldly benny said...

A very exciting and scary time is ahead of you. I am thrilled for you that you'll soon me marrying the man you love - soon you and him will be your own family. Your mom will always be your mom and your no. 1 gal ;-)

angel said...

oh wow! a henna night, and your designer is coming to dress you too!!?!
thats so so awesome!

angel said...

i was thinking about you on the weekend!
i hope everything went swimmingly and you looked divine!